There are some things that I've been afraid of for practically my entire life - like spiders. And there are some fears that have developed over time - like the fear of my children choking. And then there are other fears with origins unknown, but if I told you about them, you'd think I was a nut. What are three senseless fears that you have? Here are three of mine, in all my nutty glory:
1. When flying in an airplane and the pilot makes a sharp turn, I fear that if all the passengers just sit there and go with the maneuver, or worse, lean into the turn, that the airplane will be pushed beyond what is safe and the pilot will lose control. So I try to discreetly lean the opposite way in hopes of averting disaster.
2. I have this fear about being the last person to leave the office and having to be responsible for locking the door. I don't know if it's a fear so much as a crazy OCD. I lock the door. I check the handle. I stick the key back in and check it. I walk away. I come back and check the handle. I unlock and re-lock the door. I check the handle. I walk away and chant, "it's locked, it's locked". It really sucks. I don't want to be the person who forgets to lock the door and something terrible happens over night. Each time I am the last to leave and the last to lock the doors, I force myself to walk away sooner than I feel comfortable doing. I hope that if I continue to confront this fear, that it will one day go away. Until then, the security guards who watch the cameras that point directly at our front and back doors can get a chuckle out of this ridiculous woman locking and re-locking and chanting to herself, complete with hand motions.
3. I am uncomfortable leaving scissors out at night - I don't like to walk away from a pair of scissors that is laying out if its pointy end is pointing toward someone's bedroom or one of my neighbor's homes. There's this weird feeling I get deep down in my gut that if I leave the scissors out overnight pointing toward someone, that something terrible is going to happen to him or her that night. I don't necessarily have to place the scissors into a jar or something in order to stand them up - I can place them in a drawer or even leave them out on a table, but I just ensure that the pointy end is not pointing toward anyone. For example, I am doing some cutting downstairs on the coffee table one evening and I need to take a break until the next morning, so I decide to leave my scissors and all my work on the table overnight. I can leave the scissors on the table, but I need to make sure to turn the scissors such that the pointy end is not pointing directly in the direction of either my sister, my uncle, or my cousin's home (my neighbors). Yes, I know this makes me sound certifiably insane, but I have another friend who does this too. So there. We're both nuts.
Wow, now that I've actually written these out, I think I need to go check in at Mental Health Services in the morning. But first, I just need to put these scissors away.
Each Monday I will post a question that helps explore my creative side. It is not a creativity challenge, as I've seen others engage in, it is just a question. A question that forces me to remember, to imagine, to explore. Would you like to join in? I don't know if anyone will ever be interested in playing along, but for now, it is fun. I'll let you know next Monday's question later this week. I'm thinking Thursday.